Another couple of months passed, and we got pregnant, only to lose our baby at five weeks. As discouraging as this was, I still held on to hope, although I did start to suspect that all was not as it should be.

In November of that year, we visited a fertility specialist. She prescribed a fertility drug and sent us on our way. We were so thrilled to find out a few weeks later, that we were pregnant. But again, sadly, this baby didn’t make it past five weeks either.
Our specialist took a battery of tests for recurrent miscarriage and we took another round of the drugs. In early January 2007, we discovered there was a chromosomal abnormality, that the doctors say can increase the chance of miscarriage. Five days later, we found out that I was pregnant again.

As you can imagine, it was a very difficult time. We had blood tests every few days, but the results were never entirely conclusive. In fact, the day that my HcGs (the hormone in a woman’s body that greatly increase once they are pregnant) dropped, we had an ultrasound and saw a fetal heartbeat! Everything felt out of control and topsy turvy. Sadly, my HcGs continued to drop and at ten weeks I miscarried for the third time within a year.

The heartache of losing a baby, or of trying and trying to conceive, is very difficult to explain to someone who has never been through it.  It is a subject that is not often spoken of, and there seems to be an abnormal amount of unwarranted shame around it.

At the time of the third miscarriage, I felt the Lord say to me, “I will redeem this.” How amazing that we have a God who can bring good out of anything. I felt lead to read the story of Joseph and his reconciliation with his brothers. My heart leapt as he said to them, “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” (Genesis 50:20)

And this is the place where Thursday’s Babies has grown from. As I write this, we are still journeying! But God has put a vision in my heart for this ministry. As I speak with other women who have also been battling fertility issues, I see such a need for this to be brought out into the open. It affects so many families, and the heartache is very real. I long to see couples empowered within the Word of God, encouraged and strengthened and comforted by Christ the Redeemer and healed – both physically and in the heart.